Maybe another half marathon?
Many moons ago I ran a half marathon. I think I want to try it again. I’m back up to 3/3/3/4 miles a week. Granted, my running is still pretty slow. However, it was slow the last time I did it, and I eventually got my speed up to something reasonable. The thing I like the most about doing it is my brain is pretty much 95% endorphins all the time. The thing I dislike is the amount of time it takes. I have to be strict with myself, and run whether I feel it or not.
I’ve booked the first week schedule starting for next week.
It’s time to farm
This year I’m going to scale it back a bit and stick with what is successful: Kale, tomatoes, squash, cucumbers. I’m also going to get more berry bushes. I may or may not try basil again. I’ve only ever once managed to get it to grow successfully. I think I found the right place for it this time, but I don’t think the ground was kind to it. So I’m going to try the same spot again, but stick with pots.
I’m hoping the apple trees make it. They are starting to bud, right on time for the next freeze.
This is more of a gripe, really. Let me tell you a story about the oboe. Unlike most other instruments, you cant just “pull out” things to make it flatter. Oh sure, I remember my band teachers telling me to pull out my reed. When I grew up I learned that makes hardly a dent in the pitch. The oboe is so dependent on the reed that all the wishing in the world won’t make it play in tune unless you make it to play in tune.
I make my reeds at A-440. There’s some range in there – I can usually pull it 15 cents in either direction with my embouchure when required (and believe me, it’s required when the trumpet section gets excited and goes sharp). But there’s a limit, and I hit that like a brick wall this week. I’m doing a gig with a choir in Tahoe. It’s actually a lot of fun – we’re playing Puccini. It’s not a full orchestra, so it’s being supplemented by the piano. . And the piano is about 18-20 cents flat. I’m not sure if it hasn’t been tuned, or if it was tuned by someone that forgot to reset the tuner calibration.
Point is, I came in with my nice A-440 reeds and I was ridiculously sharp compared to everyone else. I wound up gutting my reed mid-rehearsal to drop the pitch down to painful levels. So, I did finally manage to flatten the reed enough to make it work, and in the process I may have killed it. I give it two practice sessions tops before it curls up and dies on me.
I get to do the Bach duet again (the one I did with Elizabeth) in June. This time with Josue Casillas covering the violin part on flute. Finally, a chance to take another stab at that long and meandering second movement I didn’t get quite right in January.
And to make it all more amusing, we’ll be doing a piece by Fasch. Flute and oboe duet. Except I’ll be playing the flute part on that one. I am on board with this idea because this has some tricky work in the upper register, and it will give me a chance to give it a workout.
I’m going to have to practice a lot to pull all of this off!
I’m going on another one, YAY! I wanted to go to Greece. However, scheduling and timing failed me, so I’ll be hitting Spain, France, and southern Italy. I’m sure I’ll see a few of the required sights, but quite frankly I just want to be chill, enjoy some of the luxury, eat too much food, and fly home so fat that they charge me an extra baggage fee for my ass.
I don’t have much time nowadays to burn on games, but now and then I give them a whirl if they are interesting enough. I have a pal that had pestered me (forever) to play Bioshock. Then he gifted me the games – Bioshock and Bioshock Infinite. I tried to play Bioshock, but it was so spooky I couldn’t get past the first few levels. A few weeks ago I was bored. House was super clean. I had nowhere to be, and I wanted to do something fun. So I opened up Bioshock Infinite. And started playing. It wasn’t scary at first – and by the time the blood and gore started I was so hooked I couldn’t stop playing. I’ve played a good chunk of the game to date, and I’m really enjoying it. And once it’s done I’ll probably go back to Bioshock and try that again. It’s really nice finding a new game to enjoy. It’s been a while.
I’ve been reflecting a lot on the general quietness of my life. It’s been around 3 months that I’ve been on my own again. I’m still talking to my therapist. I’m slowly but surely finding myself and the things I like to do again. Finding new hobbies. Finding new things to do. Taking care of little projects I’ve missed out on over the last year when I was more or less broken.
I do feel lonely sometimes. I feel regret that things turned out the way they did, and I feel sad for what I’ve lost. And I am also extremely grateful that it all happened this way so I could have my own personal spring.
That’s all I have to say about what’s floating around in my head.